A Mother Struggles with Depression

I have an 8 mo old daughter and have been feeling very hopeless and like life has nothing to offer me. Being a mother has been very overwhelming for me and my husband does not understand. He thinks I'm exaggerating when I say I hate my life and wish I could leave. But I can't tell you how often I think about my before parenthood days and how simple things where. If only I realized that then. I have gone to counseling once shortly after my daughter was born but did not like the counselor, she looked younger than me and like I was from another planet since I couldn't stop crying. I felt very silly and never went back. I seem to be getting worse instead of better. I thought I'd get use to this by now, but I haven't. I don't know what to do. Our HMO limits where we can go for mental health care. Any suggestions would be helpful. I feel like an island all alone because I don't want to tell anyone exactly how I'm feeling because I'm afraid they will think I don't love my daughter. Which is not true. I love her very much, but this is the hardest job I've ever had.

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